A FADING SUN - the secret first draft sample

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The Ghost’s Opening Soliloquy

We knew our names once. We were called·.·.·. We were called·.·.·.

No, those names are hard to catch and hold, like a school of silver minnows fleeing through the shallows of the river. Even that of The Strongest and Oldest, who lives in the deepest part of us. A school of silver minnows.·.·.·. Strange—we can still remember seeing that, our bare feet visible for a moment through the clear, frigid water before they were wrapped in the streamers of mud stirred from the pebbled bottom, and through it all the metallic flash of the minnows’ scales as they evaded our scooping bucket.

So long ago.

We remember that, and we remember other times and other lives as well, but our names, things that are so much a part of us that we should hold onto them forever·.·.·.

They are lost. As we are. We’ve been too long away.

We hear so many thoughts, so many voices inside, and they can’t all be ours, can they? We see the world only as through a sheer cloth, with everything obscured and blurred. We set out searching when the last of us died. We were pulled here.

Now we see you, and we see your mouth moving as if you are talking to us, but your voice is buried amongst all the others in our head, and we don’t know what you’re saying to us. We can’t hear you.

All we know is that we shouldn’t be here. In this place. Not if we want to remember. Not if we want you to become part of us.

You shouldn’t be here either.

We should be there. All of us. There.

1: The Wraith In The Shadows

The problem with ghosts is that they don’t quite realize they’re dead.

Voada entered the Temple of Pashtuk, glaring at the muddy tracks of feet on the stone flags, and it was then that she realized she wasn’t alone. The ceramic bust of Emperor Pashtuk was illuminated by the sun slanting down from the open roof above the altar in the middle of the room. The pair of east-facing open windows also allowed in shafts of dust-speckled light, creating heavy shadows around the remainder of the circular room.

Once, the temple had been dedicated not to Emperor Pashtuk but to Elia.

Voada noticed the ghost—what her own people, the Cateni, would call a taibhse—as a shimmering, nearly transparent presence in the shadows; when it passed through sunlight, the apparition vanished entirely. It paced the room’s perimeter, as if it could not bear to keep still. But this one·.·.·. it was entirely unlike any taibhse Voada had ever seen before. Voada first thought the wraith a woman, though the face shifted and changed in the light and sometimes seemed male. All the ghosts she’d seen before had looked like the people whose bodies they’d inhabited before death. But this one·.·.·. It seemed to be not one soul but many.

And before, Voada had always been able to hear the taibhse’s voice as well, but not with this one. Its eyes were always on Voada, and its mouth moved as if it were trying to speak to her. Voada almost imagined that she could hear sibilant words, but that might have been the wind that tossed the leaves outside the temple. Voada set down with a heavy sigh the heavy wooden bucket of water and rags with a grateful sigh as water sloshed over the leather of her boots. She rubbed at her back to ease the kink there, the ache that had been present ever since the birth of her second child, her son, a decade ago now.

When the ghost passed near her, Voada reached out to it and felt a winter cold as her hand passed through its body. The ghost stared at her, its features dim and difficult to read. “Who are you?” Voada asked the ghost. “I’ve helped others trapped like you before. How can I help you?”

The creature only gave a doleful shake of its head and continued pacing the room.

The temple had been built by Cateni two centuries ago for Elia, the goddess whose visage was the sun. Voada’s great-grandparents and their family had served Elia as draoi: those who could wield the magic of Elia and the sun-paths that coalesced here in the building, if the old tales could be believed. They’d also been menach, the clerics of Elia. The sun-paths were still marked on the floor: pale tiles set against the darker marble in two diagonal lines that crossed where the altar sat and ended at the four great windows that framed the solstice suns at dawn and sunset.

But those days were dust and legend since the arrival of the Mundoa, and the statue of Elia that had once graced the altar had been hidden by Voada’s grandparents because they knew that the Mundoa would simply smash the figure and melt down its golden crown. Voada knew where Elia’s statue was buried; her grandparents had told her mother, and she had told Voada.

To Voada, this was still as much Elia’s temple as Pashtuk’s, despite Emperor Pashtuk’s dour and serious image replacing that of Elia. Voada had to admit that the Mundoan sculptors were superior to those of the Cateni. One could almost imagine Pashtuk’s eyes blinking or his mouth opening, but for now he only stared blindly at Voada and the ghost.

“I can show you the sun-path,” Voada said to the taibhse, pitching her voice so that it echoed in the round chamber, shimmering as the words rebounded from the curve of the roof. “You can still find it. I’ve shown others.”

The ghost seemed to wail silently at that, its mouth open in an “O” that mimicked the central opening in the temple’s roof, and Voada saw its head shake violently. It pointed emphatically northward, not to the solstice windows or the sun-paths that led to the plane of the Cateni gods when this had been Elia’s place of worship.

The absent gods, now. The forgotten gods, for most. The forbidden gods.

“I don’t know what you want if you won’t follow the sun-path,” Voada said. “I wish I could talk to you. I wish you could hear me. Perhaps my seanmhair Ailis could have done that. She knew the spells·.·.·.”

In answer, the ghost pointed northward again, imperiously, then continued its pacing. Voada watched it, then sighed. She knelt down alongside the bucket of water and wrung out one of the rags. She began scrubbing the stone flags around the altar, marveling at the hollows worn into the golden-brown stones by generations of feet. The ghost watched her, still restless.

When Voada had finished her task a few candle-stripes later, she put the rags back in the twice-refilled bucket and stood, groaning and rubbing at her knees. The ghost had stopped and was standing directly in front of her. Voada could see the temple doors through its body, as if she were peering through a thin morning fog. The features hovering in front of her remained indistinct and genderless. “I’m leaving now,” she told it. “I’m sorry. I wish you would let me help you.”

Once more, the ghost lifted a pale arm and pointed northward. Voada hefted the bucket; as she did so, she saw movement at the door, blurred by the ghost. “Voada?” a deep voice called.

“Meir,” she answered. “Sorry. I was just getting ready to leave.” She took a step toward her husband, shivering as she passed near the ghost’s frigid presence. Older than she was by decades, Meir’s hair was now largely silver-white with his scalp gleaming through the thin strands at the top and back of his head. His breathing after climbing the hill to the temple was harsh and loud, as it was too often lately whenever he exerted himself. Even a short walk seemed to exhaust him now.

Meir wore Mundoan clothing: loose pantaloons and a vest dyed the rich blue of an administrator, as befitted his role as the Hand of Pencraig, with a simple white linen tunic underneath. Voada noticed that the servants hadn’t properly polished his boots that morning—there were still traces of mud from yesterday’s rain. Voada was wearing clothing that her grandparents would have found familiar, in the style of the Cateni who were both her and Meir’s people—a chiton (which the Mundoa scoffingly called a “bog dress”) and a woolen wrap in brown-and-ivory plaid, embroidered with elegant, brightly colored knot work around the neck and hem, belted and pinned around her body. Her long, reddish-brown hair was wound into intricate braids, the end of each held by a small gilded ball.

The thought of how they looked together, so vastly different, amused Voada suddenly. She gave Meir a smile, then peered back into the room toward the ghost.

“Thank you for cleaning the temple for tomorrow,” Meir said. He was still breathing heavily, leaning over and bracing himself against the railing around the altar. In the heavily shadowed temple, his blue eyes seemed more gray to Voada. “I’ll send Orla up to the Voice’s estate. That way, Voice-wife Dilara will know she can have her slaves bring in the flowers and decorations for Emperor Pashtuk’s birthday celebration tomorrow. Since we’re also celebrating his twentieth year on the throne, it’ll be a special ceremony. You did well.”

Voada shook her head slightly at her husband’s misunderstanding. She watched the ghost, which had resumed pacing: glinting in the shadows, lost in the sun·.·.·. “I didn’t do it to impress Voice-wife Dilara,” she said. “I only thought Elia deserved a clean home, and the temple was getting filthy. The Voice-wife doesn’t have her people take care of this place as she should.”

“This isn’t Elia’s temple,” he reminded her. “It hasn’t been now for three generations.”

“Really?” Voada answered gently. It was an old argument between them, their lines as deeply worn as a rutted road so that they didn’t even have to speak them now. Instead, she watched the ghost moving in and out of the light.

“What are you looking at?” Meir asked, still leaning on the railing. “Is there·.·.·. ?”

“Yes,” she told him.

“I don’t see anything.”

“I know. But that doesn’t mean it’s not there. I can see it.”

“Can you make this one go away like the others?”

“I tried to show it the sun-path, but it ignored me.”

Meir gave a grunt as he pushed himself upright, and Voada knew that meant the conversation was over. She hefted the bucket and turned. “Come on,” she said to Meir, taking his arm. “Let’s go home.”

* * *

The temple stood at the summit of a hill: Pencraig Bluff. Voada and Meir could see the town spreading out below them, looking as if it had mushroomed from the lush greenery. Pencraig, the village, stretched out along the shallow slope, overlooking the River Yarrow and a small dock extending out into the shallow brown water. A few boats were tied up there, and Voada could see the bustling of workers offloading supplies into the warehouses on the bank and others loading sheep, timber, and produce—Pencraig’s usual exports—onto the barges for transport to larger towns and cities upriver. Smears of thin gray smoke from hearth fires drifted above several of the buildings, pushed sideways in the breeze and bringing the smell of burning wood and peat to Voada and Meir. In the pastures tTo either side, in the pastures, they could see sheep grazing and hear their bleating calls. The percussive, rhythmic ring of a hammer on hot metal came from the blacksmith’s shop, halfway down the hill.

The lowest and poorest houses, just past the river dock, bordered a fast and cold stream that led down into the marshes at the meandering river’s edges, while a single lane of increasingly larger dwellings ascended the slope to the temple. The houses were a mixture of round, thatch-roofed, Cateni-style buildings—usually farther down the slope—and the newer rectilinear and distinctive Mundoan style faced with polished, gleaming stone.

The latter were poised high above the valley and just below the temple so that anyone looking up from the river or the road the Mundoa had built would see them: resplendent, polished jewels glistening in the sun and nestled in the verdant landscape. Those estates, with few exceptions, were occupied by those of Mundoan blood who had come to settle on Cateni land, almost all of whom were connected with the Mundoan administration or military.

The lane here was stone-paved, though Voada remembered that in her childhood it had been only packed and rutted dirt; in the Spring rains, it would send muddy rivulets rushing down the hill to pool against the raised stone thresholds of the houses lower down or join the water thrashing against the rocks of Pencraig Stream. The Mundoa seemed to have an aversion to muddy feet and the earth. Voada had heard tales that on the mainland across the Barrier Sea, the main roads leading to the Mundoan capital were decorated with brightly colored tiles and were so smoothly paved, straight, and flat that one could roll a ball down each and it wouldn’t stop until it reached the far ocean.

She dismissed those tales as stories meant mostly to impress the listener with the teller’s wide travels and importance. The roads the Mundoa built here were, she would admit, a modest improvement over Pencraig’s lanes of her youth. But her mother and grandmother had told her about the roads of the northern Cateni sun-paths, which—at least according to them—had once been superior to even those mythical Mundoan roads.

“Hand Paorach,” she heard someone call as they walked slowly down the hill, Voada holding Meir’s arm. They both turned to see Voice-wife Dilara standing at the gated entrance to the Voice’s estate, the courtyard green and cool behind her with simply clad Cateni slaves washing the flagstones and pruning the garden around the fountain. “Hand-wife,” she said, with a bare nod toward Voada before turning back to Meir. “You were just at the temple?”

“Yes,” Meir answered, “and Voada has cleaned it for the ceremony tomorrow. We were going to send our daughter to let you know.” Voada noticed that Meir carefully said nothing about the ghost she’d seen there. It wouldn’t do to remind the Voice-wife of Cateni superstitions, especially when they weren’t visible to her.

Dilara lifted her chin. She was a dour woman, thin as a marsh reed and as brittle. Birthing nine children had left her haggard and gray-haired, despite the numerous slaves the Voice owned to run the household and care for their brood. Both Voice Maki Kadir and Voice-wife Dilara were Mundoan, speaking with the nasal accent of the mainland. Dilara was dressed in Mundoan finery, a long dress dyed a blue so intense it made Voada’s eyes burn, richly embroidered with golden threads at the hem and neckline, with a stole of expensive white linen over it. Gold-set jewels gleamed at her throat and in her hair, and her fingers were adorned with rings.

“You did that drudgery yourself, Hand-wife?” she asked, her eyes narrowing as heavy lines creased the corners. Her eyes were the dark brown of sweetnut shells, and she glanced at the bucket and rags Voada was carrying. “That’s servants’ work. Why, I was intending to send some of household slaves to the temple later today.”

“I wanted to do it myself, Voice-wife,” Voada answered. “Our temple deserves the touch of someone who honors its history, not just someone who’s following her mistress’s commands.”

Dilara’s eyes narrowed further, as if she were turning over Voada’s words to see if there was something unpleasant buried in them. “Then I must thank you, Hand-wife,” she said finally. “It’s good that at least some of the Cateni understand their roles, as do you and Hand Paorach.” She glanced back into the courtyard, where her slaves were working. “You!” she shouted at one. “Look at the mess you’re making. Be more careful, or you’ll find yourself cleaning the midden.” With that, Dilara turned back to them. “We’ll see you tomorrow at the ceremony?”

“Of course,” Meir answered her. “We’re looking forward to it. Aren’t we, Voada?”

Voada forced a smile onto reluctant lips and nodded to the Voice-wife. “We certainly are.”

Dilara’s sour expression didn’t change. “We’ll see you then. The Voice and Hand must show the rabble the importance of the emperor and how we’re proud and united behind him. Without Emperor Pashtuk and us Mundoa, the island of Albann would still be nothing but an uncivilized wilderness.”

With that, Dilara took her leave, going back into the courtyard to scold those working there, and Voada and Meir continued walking down the lane. “I’m sorry,” Meir said when they were out of earshot of the Voice’s estate. “She doesn’t think about who might be hurt by what she says. I’ve known other Mundoa in other cities; not all of them think as she does.”

“It’s fine,” Voada answered. “The Voice-wife is only saying what she’s been taught.” Still, part of her wanted to rage and rant. Uncivilized wilderness? We Cateni had cities and temples everywhere in Albann before the Mundoa ever came here. We had our own ways, and they were good. Why, the tales my grandmother told me before she died·.·.·. But no, saying any of that would only start the old arguments again. Meir might not like the Mundoa, but as the Hand, he was simply another one of the overlords to most of the Cateni.

And therefore, as his wife, so was Voada.

The Hand’s residence was of Mundoan style, about halfway down the temple path, balanced between the old and the new parts of the town. As Hand of Pencraig, Meir was responsible for collecting taxes and tribute for the Mundoan administration centered in Trusa, their capital city well to the south, once just a small village that the Cateni had called Iskameath. Meir reported to Voice Kadir in most things. Recruiting locals to help run the government was one of the ways the Mundoa kept the people they conquered in check. They were integrated into the bureaucracy, living in houses like those on the mainland, speaking the language of the Mundoa instead of their own as generation by generation their history and culture slowly vanished. They became nominally Mundoan themselves.

Voada knew that for the fallacy it was.

Their servants met them in the courtyard. Like the Voice’s servants, they were all Cateni; there were no slaves of Mundoan origin in Albann. Hurrying forward, they took the bucket from Voada’s hands and slipped the cloaks from their shoulders. “Here, Hand-wife. Sit here, and let me take your boots to be cleaned. Look, here are your house sandals. Would you like some wine, Hand Paorach? You seem tired from your walk. The cook has stewed a rabbit; I can bring the two of you a fresh bowl with some bread·.·.·.” The chatter went on around them. Meir was breathing heavily as he sat in his chair. He waved the servants away, and they vanished into the house, leaving him alone with Voada in the well-shaded courtyard, surrounded by the delicate fragrance of the trumpet flowers blooming on the trellises.

“You know we have to keep appearances, no matter what you believe yourself,” Meir said. His eyes were half closed; he spoke to the air.

“When have I ever not done that?” she answered him.

“I know. You have.” She heard him sigh deeply, and he sat up and looked at her. “This ghost, this taibhse·.·.·. It will be there tomorrow.” He said it without the rising question at the end—a simple statement.

“I expect so,” she told him.

“You rid the temple of the other ones.”

“I know. This one, though—it won’t listen to me or can’t hear me, and I can’t hear its voice.”

“Maybe it’s not someone’s soul. Maybe it’s something else.”

That comment, Voada thought, was a sign of their long marriage. He spoke exactly what had been in her mind as well since they’d left the temple, and though he couldn’t see the ghosts as she could, he had never questioned her insistence that they were really there. She said they were and that she’d been seeing them since she was a young girl; he was still Cateni enough to accept that. In their lore, the souls of the departed sometimes had to be guided to the sun-paths. Her forbearers had done that in the very same temple, so it was unsurprising that Voada had inherited that gift and continued the tradition, even if the temple was now occupied by a travesty.

“In that case, my husband, there’s nothing we can do about it. You couldn’t see it; I doubt anyone else will either. There’s no sense in worrying ourselves over it.”

His chin lifted and fell again, a faint nod accompanied by an equally faint smile. She returned the smile.

She wondered if he felt the gesture’s emptiness or if he’d heard the lie in her words. If today’s ghost wasn’t another wandering soul looking for release, then she didn’t know what it was or what its portent might be.

The apparition would be in her thoughts the rest of the day and through the night.

***

2: The Blessing of Pahtuk

The ghost was still there in the temple. Voada could see it restlessly prowling the open space near the altar, watching her and gesturing as if trying to call her. Voada did her best to ignore the taibhse.

She stood with her family on the western side of the altar: Meir closest to the altar as Hand, then Voada as Hand-wife. Beside them were their two children: Orla, their fourteen-year old daughter, at Voada’s side; their son, Hakan, ten, next to Meir. It had taken her a long time to become pregnant again after Orla’s birth, and since giving birth to Hakan, Voada had been pregnant four more times, but each time the pregnancies had ended in blood and pain after only a few moons. Since the last failed pregnancy, she’d been unable to conceive at all despite the fact that Meir still came to her occasionally. Her moon-time bleedings had become erratic, no longer predictable.

At thirty years old, she was nearly at the age when she would be considered an “older woman,” when she might reasonably expect grandchildren in the next few years. It seemed her childbearing days had already passed. Despite that, she still prayed to Elia at the solstices for the blessing of another child, but so far Elia hadn’t chosen to answer those prayers.

At the eastern side of the altar were the Voice and Voice-wife, and clustered around them were six children of the nine Dilara had carried to term, the other three having died of illnesses in infancy.

All around them, the temple was packed with people come to celebrate Emperor Pashtuk’s birthday, the crowd ringing the altar at a few paces’ distance. A squadron of Pencraig’s garrison of Mundoan soldiers, under the command of Sub-Commander Bakir, were stationed prominently behind the altar and at the temple doors. A choral group of Mundoan singers chanted verses praising Emperor Pashtuk’s great accomplishments, their mingled voices echoing from the stones. Incense burned in twin braziers on either side of Pashtuk’s bust, filling the air with pungent smoke that drifted toward the eastern windows and up to the open sky above the altar. The acrid scent made Voada’s nose wrinkle and filled her with a desire to sneeze, and she heard Orla sniff loudly next to her. Voada put an arm around her daughter and shook her head.

“No,” she whispered. “Not here.” Voada saw her daughter’s eyes—grass-green like Voada’s own eyes—narrow and focus on something in the shadows behind the altar.

“There’s a taibhse, Mother,” Orla said, a little too loudly even over the chanters, and Voada saw Dilara’s frowning gaze swivel to rest on them.

Voada put a finger to her lips, then bent down to Orla as if she were chastising her. “You see it? Have you seen others, too, before this?”

A nod answered her. “We’ll need to talk about that,” she breathed into Orla’s ear, “but that will have to wait until afterward. Does seeing it scare you?”

Orla screwed up her nose. “The ghost doesn’t bother me, but the incense stinks.”

Voada smiled at that. “It does, but the Voice-wife’s breath will be worse if she comes over to scold us for talking.”

She heard the giggle that Orla barely suppressed as the chanters finished their paean and pressed her own lips together in a false serious frown as she straightened up again, holding Orla’s hand. She shrugged to Dilara in apology.

Voice Kadir nodded to Meir as the last reverberation of the chant faded, and Voice and Hand now approached the altar, each carrying a silver plate heaped with small copper coins adorned with Pashtuk’s profile. They placed the trays in front of the bust. The coins, representing the tribute due to the emperor, would remain there, guarded by the soldiers of the garrison until they mysteriously vanished in a moment during the night, as if Pashtuk himself had accepted the offering. Only the empty silver plates would be there in the morning to greet the first worshipper. That was the ritual, repeated every year. Voada knew that it would be Sub-Commander Bakir who would gather up the coins in the darkness and return them to the Voice.

Meir stepped back while the Voice pivoted slowly to face the audience. Voice Kadir had the sagging posture and figure of a bureaucrat and the same long and thin nose that adorned Pashtuk’s bust. Weak-eyed, he squinted constantly, and he had a habit of running his fingers through his close-cut and thinning dark hair.

As the Voice turned to the onlookers, Voada saw that he had moved directly into the path of the ghost, fading out of existence as it moved into sunlight before reappearing again in the shadow cast by the altar and the sculpture of Emperor Pashtuk. No one else in the audience saw it or responded to the taibhse’s restless pacing of the temple.

Voice Kadir cleared his throat. “Today,” he said, “we celebrate the birth of our great Emperor Pashtuk, blessed by our gods and sent as their emissary to this world, and beloved by all the people he rules as we mark the twentieth year of his glorious reign.” Maki Kadir might have been Voice for the village, but his own voice was small and muffled, as if he were too lazy too fully open his mouth. Voada doubted that anyone not directly in front of the man could hear what he said, though no one dared to complain. “Today, we come together to praise Emperor Pashtuk ourselves, as he so rightly deserves.”

The ghost was next to the Voice, and as he finished that last statement, it seemed to Voada’s eyes that he and the taibhse merged together. Voice Kadir visibly shivered, as if it were full winter and the air were touched with ice. His voice faltered mid-sentence, his eyes widened, and his body went stiff. His head turned ponderously until his gaze met Voada’s. “We shouldn’t be here,” he said then, clearly and loudly, as if someone’s else’s voice had stolen his own. His words echoed unnaturally throughout the temple. “And neither should you. We belong there.” With the last word, he pointed northward. “In Albann Bràghad.”

There was an audible gasp from the onlookers at that name: the northland, where the unconquered tribal remnants of the Cateni still lived. Albann Bràghad. The River Meadham was the dividing line between Albann Bràghad, the northern portion of the greater island Albann, and its southern portion, Albann Deas, which the Mundoa ruled. Sub-Commander Bakir’s bristling eyebrows lowere as he stared at Voice Kadir.

Then Voice Kadir shivered again, and his hand dropped as Voada saw the shadowed outline of the ghost step away from the Voice, its hand still pointing imperiously to the north. Voada wordlessly tightened her grip on her daughter’s hand. The taibhse wants me to go to Albann Bràghad? Why? The apparition stepped into the sunlight pouring down through the open roof and was gone in the assault of its radiance.

The Voice was sputtering and blinking, his knees seemingly weak underneath him. His gaze swept around the room as the crowd gawked at him and a susurration of whispered comments filled the silence. Dilara stepped forward into the confusion, touching her husband’s shoulder, though she—and Meir and Bakir as well—kept glancing toward Voada. “What the Voice means,” Dilara declared, “is that Emperor Pashtuk has heard our praises and blesses us all. He wishes us well as we return to our homes, for that is where we should go now. This year, in his largesse, the emperor wishes us to take these coins as tokens of his blessing and leave him.”

Dilara tugged at her husband’s sleeve. She nodded her head to the plates of copper coins on the altar. Voice Kadir seemed to shake himself awake. “Yes,” he said, and it was his own voice again. “Accept the blessings of our emperor.” With that, he grabbed a small handful of the copper coins and tossed them into the crowd. A moment later, as the Voice scattered a second handful, Meir joined in with the coins from his own plate of offerings. Children shrieked in glee, diving for the coins as they clattered on the marble flags; the adults laughed, many of them also crouching down to gather the money. Bakir’s soldiers watched restlessly, glancing uneasily at their commanding officer over the chaos of what was supposed to be a solemn, dignified occasion.

“Our ceremony is ended,” Dilara shrilled over the clamor as both Meir and the Voice tossed a third handful of the coins into the crowds. “All of you should return to your houses and thank Emperor Pashtuk in your prayers this evening.”

Dilara nodded to Sub-Commander Bakir, who shouted an order. The soldiers clashed the butts of their spears against the tiled floor and slowly began to move forward, herding the worshippers toward the doors, though they passed around the Voice, the Hand, and their families. Voada could feel Meir staring at her. She kept her gaze on him as something familiar and supportive, not wanting to see the expressions that might be contorting the faces of Dilara or her husband.

She could see the ghost again, lurking in the nearby shadows: still pacing, still speaking wordlessly, still watching her. Always watching her.

“Mother, you’re hurting me,” she heard Orla cry out. Voada realized that she was still holding her daughter’s hand, that she was squeezing it far too tightly. She let go of the hand, putting her arm around Orla’s shoulders instead and kissing the top of her head. She did the same to Hakan, who stood next to Orla looking like a small version of his father, with the same yellow-brown hair Meir had once had—though Hakan’s gaze was fastened on a copper coin at his feet, not the adults. “I’m sorry, darling,” she said. “I’m very sorry.” She looked back quickly to Meir. “Should we go, husband?” she asked as Hakan stooped to pick up the coin. “The children are tired.” Her eyes pleaded with him. He nodded to her, looking tired and older than his age. The Voice’s children were rushing about, picking up the scattered coins and laughing. Voada doubted that either of their parents found anything amusing in the morning’s fiasco.

“You go on,” Meir told her. “I’ll stay here and help the Voice and Voice-wife put the temple back to rights. And why don’t you take the Voice’s children with you? I’m sure Voice-wife Dilara would appreciate that.”

“Certainly,” Voada told him. She nodded quickly to Dilara, who looked as if she’d just bitten into a rotten berry, then gestured to the children. “I’ll see you at home, then.”

Gathering the children together, she hurried from the temple.

***